"To ascertain where you really are with the Lord, recall what saddened you the past month. Was is it the realization that you do not love Jesus enough? That you did not seek his face in prayer often enough? That you did not care for his people enough? Or did you get depressed over a lack of respect, criticism from an authority figure, your finances, a lack of friends, fears about the future, or your bulging waistline? Conversely, what gladdened you the past month? Reflection on your election to the Christian community? The joy of saying slowly, 'Abba, Father?' The afternoon you stole away for two hours with on the gospel as you companion? A small victory over selfishness? Or were the sources of your joy a new car, a Brooks Brothers suit, a great date, great sex, a raise, or a loss of four inches from your waistline." (The Importance of Being Foolish, 2005)
Convicting, isn't it? Advent is a time for reflection. We're called to think about our lives in light of Christ's love and truth. Brennan Manning suggests, with this quote, that we need to audit our lives and ponder upon the question, what makes us happy? Learning to love more faithfully? Spending time with the hurting? Helping those in need? Or, getting our way? Another pair of shoes? Another app for the iphone? What do we celebrate?
As I've often said before, conversion is a transformation of our desires. With God's faithful guidance and empowerment, our desires are redirected toward a noble end--the glorification of God and the enjoyment of His goodness through creation and community. Something to think about.
Peace.